The Elucidation

after a few days .....
February 19, 2011
pagkauwi ko galing ROTC
nag'open ako ng computer. "immediately"
Then nasa likod ko lng si mama.
she asked me about "HIM"

mama: "ano na? nag'text na siya?"
abby: " .........."
and mama remain in silence...
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After HE stopped texting me..
my phone is sooooo tahimik.
as in.. no one's texting me,
well may nagt'txt nman paisa-isa, padalawa-dalawa.
like GLOBE, 4438 and 2474.
minsan GM lng ng classmate.
(Tsk! akala ko siya na...)
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Ok. so while I was reading comments, messages,
viewing friends req.,
posting on my friend's walls. etc.
I received 1 message.
hindi ko muna pinansin dhil inisip ko
Tsk! GM nnman yan. o kaya yung 2474
Then after all that I've done.
I checked my phone.and.BOOM!
"HIS" name appeared in my inbox
saying ... "I have something to say ... to confess..
kung malawak pag'iisip mo, maiintindhan mo ako. Txt back
if you're free, and if you're ready to hear my side.
I have read you post in your blog. It's awful.
I don't think niloko kita."
Then I felt...
"oh.my.GOD . . .
parang ... eeer... bigla nlng nagdilim ung paningin ko
nagulat ako. nabigla ung ♥ ko.
di ko ma'explain...
I was speechless... really.
then I turned. mama was there. gusto ko sbhin sa kanya
but I wasn't able to speak.
ang ginawa ko nlng.
I signed out my FACEBOOK account,
and turned off the computer
at umuwi na ako... sa kabilang bahay :p

Pagdating sa "kabilang" bahay, I locked myself in my room.
Take a deep breath ...... then nireplyan ko xa. sbi ko
"Go..."

Then here's "HIS" explanations.

He said, he wanted to say SORRY,
because of what he had done this past few weeks,
and pati monthsary nmin hindi niya ako naasikaso ...
(If you did read my previous post.. yun na yon!)
and about dun sa girl na nag'message skin na ang sabi eh
"ASAWA" niya daw. and that girl is his "EX" daw.
totoo na sa kanila daw natutulog.
and kaya daw natutulog dun ung girl na yun
is because nagkaproblem daw sila.
before they break up, preggy daw ung girl.
and feb 4 nalaglag daw.
then he said that he was responsible for what happened
kaya pina-raspa daw ung girl. aun..
mahal pa daw siya nung girl, hindi niya daw kayang
mawala si Mr. B.
Then he said to that girl
"dumito ka muna, but don't expect na ma2halin ulit kita"
sinbi niya daw sa girl na may iba na daw xang mahal.

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Hindi niya daw sinabi itong mga nangyaring ito sakin
dhil baka daw MAWALA ako sa kanaya. (What?! *LOL*)
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Then sbi niya. that girl all know na ako daw bago gf niya?
kya daw nag'message skn ng ganun.

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If you guys can't recall anu ni-MESSAGE skn nung girl
here's a link. and READ it.again :D

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Then aun nga, inalagaan niya daw yung girl.
khit na pa'recover plng daw siya nun sa sakit niya.
Then.. sbi niya
"NEVER kita niloko, I've done my part in our relationship"
(correction! masasabi kong.. You did not!
sana naman nag'iwan ka ng message dba..
ako na nga nag'ttxt sayo lagi..
min'message na kita sa FB mo, still no response...
grabe ka ... mahigit dalawang linggo kang hindi nagparamdam
wala akong balita sayo.
tapos habang wala ka. sumulpot nga yang EX mo.
kaya gulung-gulo ako at hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko.
ano ba tingin mo sakin? MANHID??!!
na hindi naka2ramdam ng pag'aalala?
akala mo. kpag naipaliwanag mo na lahat lahat sakin
akala mo OK na lahat??!!!
Grabe ka tlga.. oo. iniintindi kita sa lahat ng oras
pero sana wag nman abuso.

yan kasi ang PROBLEMA sayo eh. sariling kapakanan mo lng
iniisip mo, paano naman ako? ....
khit ni minsan hindi mo inisip yung sa side ko.
lagi nalang sayo.SAYO.SAYOOO!!! *o cge ikaw na :)) )



And now.. you still do calling me "baby"
sinasabi mong "I miss you.. so bad."
sinasabi mo "i love you"

whew. ano gus2 mo palabasin?
ramdam ko na sayo na hindi mo na ako mahal.
Dapat nga sa mga oras na to, kung tlgang ayaw mo ako mawala
bumabawi ka.
khit nga tawag mula sayo wala eh.
huling tawag mo na sakin yung noong Feb. 5, saturday, tanghali nun
and I'm on my way to Villamor (ROTC nmin)

hindi mo na kailangang mag'bitiw ng mga matatamis na salita.
sinasabi mo ba yan dhil alam mong hindi kita kayang iwan?
hindi kita kayang tiisin?
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I had it with you...
hindi na tlga kita maintindihan.
conscience nlng.



This post was POSTED
February 28, 2011

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